Our nightly routine begins around 1800 and usually is completed at the latest 2130 — dinner, playtime at yia yia - (my daughter’s grand-mother), bath-time which include massage and play along songs.
Once she's all dressed up, hair and teeth brushed I turn down the lights and nurse my daughter to sleep in our bed, my favourite part. I do a verbal retrospective of our day in simple words and short sentences and sing some lullabies while playing with her beautiful curls. She often reciprocate my sweet gestures by gently rubbing my tummy or my arm — what a bliss.
I am going to miss those days once I cease nursing — when is that going to be, I have no idea. I think the hardest thing about breastfeeding is to end it. I am going to truly miss those bonding moments we've shared, they are so precious. I miss them already, simply by the thought of her outgrowing them. I love my daughter so very much. I love everything about her. The more she grows, the deepest my love flourish.
To think I could love her more than the first time the doctor lay her down on my chest seems impossible to conceive but it is precisely how I feel. I am feeling such growth, like a never ending love song or a streaming waterfall that simply has no ending. Such strong feelings of love towards my daughter it baffles me.
I never knew I could love this way, this hard. Will it stop one day ? Will I ever run out of flowing loving feelings for her ? Is this what they call unconditional love ? How will I feel when she will say hurtful words ? Am I completely vulnerable, exposed and bare by loving someone so much ?
I think being a parent is truly the biggest revelation a nurturing caregiver can have. I never knew so many things and I am in it for the long run, therefor I am far from being done learning on my capability as a human being. I love every aspect and milestones motherhood has brought me. Almost a year and a half since my not so little baby was born, which feels like it literally flew by and it has been the most enriching, gratifying and enlightening time of my life.
Looking towards the future, I can only wish for health. To be there for her anytime she may need me. To be part of her life and witness her becoming the best that she can be through the ups and down of life. I hope to find the words to guide her when she will seek for my opinions. I have a lot to learn and I am so grateful I get to do it with this little human. I now understand the true meaning of those following words “the miracle of life”.
BZM
I am going to miss those days once I cease nursing — when is that going to be, I have no idea. I think the hardest thing about breastfeeding is to end it. I am going to truly miss those bonding moments we've shared, they are so precious. I miss them already, simply by the thought of her outgrowing them. I love my daughter so very much. I love everything about her. The more she grows, the deepest my love flourish.
To think I could love her more than the first time the doctor lay her down on my chest seems impossible to conceive but it is precisely how I feel. I am feeling such growth, like a never ending love song or a streaming waterfall that simply has no ending. Such strong feelings of love towards my daughter it baffles me.
I never knew I could love this way, this hard. Will it stop one day ? Will I ever run out of flowing loving feelings for her ? Is this what they call unconditional love ? How will I feel when she will say hurtful words ? Am I completely vulnerable, exposed and bare by loving someone so much ?
I think being a parent is truly the biggest revelation a nurturing caregiver can have. I never knew so many things and I am in it for the long run, therefor I am far from being done learning on my capability as a human being. I love every aspect and milestones motherhood has brought me. Almost a year and a half since my not so little baby was born, which feels like it literally flew by and it has been the most enriching, gratifying and enlightening time of my life.
Looking towards the future, I can only wish for health. To be there for her anytime she may need me. To be part of her life and witness her becoming the best that she can be through the ups and down of life. I hope to find the words to guide her when she will seek for my opinions. I have a lot to learn and I am so grateful I get to do it with this little human. I now understand the true meaning of those following words “the miracle of life”.
BZM